Wednesday, 14 September 2011

Ramadan is over, what now?

Ramadan is over, have we got closer to Allah Subhana Wa Ta'ala? Have we returned back to our sins? Are we worst off than before Ramadan? Have we (especially brothers) stopped visiting the house of ALLAH (mosque)? Have we stopped reciting and studying the Qur'an? Have we stopped our nightly prayers (Qiyam)? Unfortunately most of us would say yes to all these questions! I feel sad that Ramadan has left us. Whenever we fast, we find it easier to perform the reccomended deeds such as reciting the Qur'an, doing nafl prayers. Alhamdulillah I am trying to fast for the six days of shawal. Alhamdulillah not many more days left now. Our beloved prophet Muhammad sallallahu alaihis salam told us to fast six days in the month of Shawal which comes just after the month of Ramadan. If we do so, it will be like as if we fasted the whole year! Subhanallah! How can we afford to miss this great opportunity to earn such a great amount of reward! May Allah swt give us all the ability to fast in Shawal, Ameen.

One of the way, we can guess whether our deeds in Ramadan has been accepted by Allah subhana wa ta'ala is to be able to repeat the deeds after Ramadan . I hope we can carry on doing whatever deeds we did during Ramadan. According to the sunnah of our beloved Prophet Sallallahu alaihis Salam, we should be more concerned about our deeds being accepted by Allah Subhana wa ta'ala. Just performing a deed is never enough. We should continuously ask Allah subhana wa ta'ala to accept the humble deed from us. There is a beautiful dua in the Qur'an which we can do after every act of worship insha-Allah. The dua was done by a very close friend of Allah Subhana Wa ta'ala , Siyyidina Ibrahim A'laihis Salam. Rabbana taqabbal minna. Innaka antas Samiul Aleem. O Allah swt accept (this worship) from us; You are the All-Hearing, the All-Knowing (Qur'an 2:127).

 I have been listening to some beautiful talks to boost my imaan insha-Allah. Alhamdulilah this great lecture below was given by Sheikh Shady Alsuleiman in August 2009 (post Ramadan 09) at Lakemba Mosque. May ALLAH (SWT) reward him for the excellent talk and also reward you all for watching. May Allay swt help us in implementing his suggestions, Ammen. May Allah swt grant us the ability to remain on the straight path ( siratul mustakim) and grant us istikama... steadfastness, ameen. May Allah swt accept all the worship we did during Ramadan and give us the ability to carry on doing more through out the year and give us the opportunity to witness more Ramadan in our life, Ameen!

Also, another 5 part talk given by Imam Rageah on post Ramadan activities. I love listening to his talk as he talks about practical issues we face on a regular basis. He was talking about Facebook and how we tend to replace the Qur'an, Allah's Book with the Facebook just right after Ramadan ! May Allah swt forgive me and give me the strength to avoid the FB Fitna Book :-) as much as possible.Insha-Allah I am trying to use the internet only for beneficial purpose. May Allah swt make it easy for me to read His Book on a regular basis, Ameen!
Was our Ramadan accepted...

Saturday, 10 September 2011

Five years Alhamdulillah :-)

Alhamdulillah five years ago, on this day I got married to my husband. It took me quite a long time to find him :-) I used to tell my friend at university and at work, that I may never get married and live for the rest of my life with 99 cats! I don't know where I got this idea from but I was indeed quite worried about my future. I have always been a big fan of children. For me the biggest fear was the prospect of being childless forever! I have seen quite a lot of brothers through family and friends. The more I was going through these meetings, I was getting frustrated thinking this is not really working for me and love is just a myth! Alhamdulillah going to hajj in 2006 has made me help put things into perspective. I started to think more seriously about the purpose of my life. I even wrote in my diary that marriage is not an ultimate goal for me anymore. Before that time, I used to think only through marriage I can become a better Muslimah as if no other option is left for me to serve my Creator. I came to know that marriage is a sunnah not a fard (obligatory). So I decided that I would just concentrate in getting closer to Allah swt.
Alhamdulillah going to hajj and staying there with my dad for a month has changed my life forever. Alhamdulillah it has been a great time for me to reflect and ponder about my future. I met some amazing people during that time. They all have inspired me and helped me to rethink about my life and all the expectations I had. When I came back, I was really missing my time in Makkah and Madinah. Life in London felt so spiritually bankrupt! I stopped working full time as a teacher and started part time work. I started seeking more knowledge of my faith through attending circles at my local mosque. I didn't actively look for a partner either. But through my dad I came to know about my husband. Alhamdulillah we have talked to each other at our place twice and we did do our istikhara ( prayer for guidance) couple of times. I wasn't really sure that this will work out for me so didn't really had that many hope. But alhamdulillah we both were okay with each other and decided to go forward! Alhamdulillah we are still very happy with each other.

 Alhamdulillah we do treat each other as best friends. But I do believe that  he is also my guardian . My faith has taught me that my husband is responsible for taking care of me and  my responsibility towards him is to listen to him. Insha-Allah through loving him and listening to him ( apart from anything which goes against our faith), I hope to please Allah (SWT). Being married for five years, I have learnt a lot about life and most importantly about myself. Sometimes we tend to get too much carried away with the whole wedding stuff but marriage should be the priority for all of us especially the future husband and the wife! Now after five years of marriage I truly understand how difficult but at the same time how significant married life is! Now I can at least understand why marriage is regarded as the half of our faith (deen). Being a mother of three kids all under the age of 4 also taught me so much about myself. I do have my days where everything seems so hard . But also I have my days where I feel so delighted watching my children growing up alhamdulillah. Sometimes it just seems to be a dream to me. Allah swt has blessed me with so much! Alhamdulillah All Praise Belongs To Him and Only Him! I hope to be grateful to Him by spending every moment of my life thanking Him and obeying His commands, INSHA-ALLAH! May Allah swt keep us happy and blessed forever! Everything is from Allah swt . La hawla wa la quwwata illah billah... we cannot do anything good without His Help and we cannot save ourselves from anything bad without His Help. God is the Great Allahu Akbar!
"My Rabb! Grant me the power and ability that I may be grateful for Your Favour which You have bestowed upon me and my parents and that I may do righteous good deeds such as please You and make my offspring good. Truly I have turned to You in repentance and truly I am one of the Muslims. " [Qur'an Al-Ahqah:15]