Thursday, 8 July 2010
My life as a mother
Sometimes I cannot believe that I am a mother. It feels like just the other day I was single, busy with my university assignments and presentations. I was also working as a mentor and alhamdulillah actively involved in the student societies. After graduation I worked as a full time teacher at a private school. My day used to start at 6:30 and end at 11:30 or 12 at night. Even the weekends were packed with preparing lesson plans and marking endless homework and exam papers :-( but I enjoyed it a lot alhamdulillah. It gave me satisfaction. I always loved teaching . It is like a passion to me. Watching my cute little students enjoying my lessons made me feel very happy with my life. Teaching is a stressful job but it also can be quite rewarding when you see the positive changes you can make through teaching.
When I got married I moved to another borough so it was too much for me to commute from my place to work. However, my priorities have changed as well. I was eagerly waiting to be a mother soon. Alhamdulillah Allah swt blessed me with a quick conception. My son was born just 3 months after our first anniversary. From that day onward my life changed forever and I hope its for good insha-Allah. I was so glad to hold my baby boy for the first time. I couldn't believe that he came from me! Subhanallah! The joy of motherhood cannot be described in words. It's just an amazing feeling. Then again just after one and half year, I was blessed with a baby girl, alhamdulillah. Once again the feeling was amazing. Our children are growing very quickly. I try to capture the sweet memories we are creating through photos and videos but still it seems not enough. Even looking at their baby photos, I feel I could have hold them more or kiss them more ! I feel so happy and satisfied when I see my two children playing with each other. They love and adore each other mashallah. Being close in age, I thought they will be quite jealous of each other. But alhamdulillah at least up until now, they have proved me wrong. I hope and pray that Allah swt keeps them close to each other especially when we will be gone. This world is going to get worse and I am very concerned about my children's future. I hope they will be good Muslims. I want them to be leaders of the Ummah insha-Allah. Being a mother myself, now I can understand how parents feel . It is not an easy job. It requires quite a lot of dedication and sacrifice. Mothers are the first school for their children. Once again, I have the oppurtunity to become a teacher :-) but sometimes I doubt about my abilities as a mother as well as a teacher ; whether I will be able to bring up my children as good Muslims. I have learnt from my own experience that it is very easy to criticize other's parenting technique but as a parent I can understand how hard this job can be! I hope to prepare myself to be a good mother insha-Allah. I hope to do more research on what values a good mother should have and how she should bring up the children insha-Allah. May Allah swt make it easy for us and help us to be better mothers insha-Allah!